It has been one of those weeks when it rains, it pours. I am thankful it's Friday and God has given me a new perspective, but it took a long time to change. So I would like to take this time to share with you my week and remind myself of God's goodness.
It all started Monday night after Greg's basketball game, when I came down with a serious stomach bug. It left me feeling weak and tired. I spent all day Tuesday trying to re cope letting Carlee pretty much do whatever she wanted, which means watching TV and playing on the computer. I felt like a bad mom, but sometimes you have to have a break and allow time for rest. That evening my sister came to the rescue after calling me and finding that I am in over my head and need help taking care of the kids while Greg is at another basketball game (it was a tournament and thankfully they won). Tuesday evening, Greg gets the stomach bug and is up most the night. Now I am not only weak, but he is too. Not to mention he has started his new schedule this week working from 6am to 2:30 pm and is not getting enough sleep period. He still goes to work on Wednesday and comes home to a big pile of mulch in the driveway (big meaning....5 yards). He spends the rest of the day/evening putting the mulch in our backyard where he is designing an area for Carlee and Zachary to play. I can't even believe he did this after being tired and weak from the stomach bug. He is Superman, I tell you. Wednesday night, Zachary wakes up several times with a temp. and another ear infection (I think this might be the 4th one). Thursday, I take him to the doctor while Carlee stays at church to play at Splash Day, after all the girl needs to get out of the house and have some fun for a change. Thursday afternoon, I have a complete meltdown and call my mom for some encouragement. She on the other hand is in her own set of circumstances and tells me, "Sometimes that is just how life goes. It's hard." I did not want to hear this, but knew it was true. After getting off the line with her my friend Amy C. calls (I'm still not sure why she called), but I am in the middle of my mole hill about to let it take over (in a pool of tears) and she offers to pray for me and help out. What are friends for.... I love you girl. Thursday late afternoon, Greg comes home from the doctors. He had gone to the doctors because of some red eye irritation and puss he had had all week. He tells me he has pink eye. I could not believe that I had not even looked at my husband long enough to realize his eye was red. Lesson number 1, when you have problems look at the people around you and be encouraged that you are not the only one. Thursday night, Greg stays inside and lets me go for a run. He knows this is a great way for me to let off some steam and build good endorphins. I am a happier person after working out.
So now it is Friday and I have learned many lessons.
1. Do not let the weeks circumstances overtake me and keep me from focusing on God. He will have victory!
2. Attitude is everything. Why not choose joy and trust Him through the process!
3. He is gracious and compassionate and will choose the least sever method to get me to where He wants me. After all, He is after my heart and all these circumstances is an opportunity for me to trust Him and remind me that He is faithful.
4. God can use me despite what I am going through. He showed me this at IW (Intercessory Worship)on Wednesday night. I felt that even though life was caving in, I still had Him and that would get me through anything.
5. Be thankful for what you are going through even if it is hard. At the end you will be different, improved, more affective, pure, holy and able to praise Him more after it is all said and done. After all He is only getting us ready for His return.
I went to a women's breakfast last Saturday and I was given a verse just for me. Romans 15:19 "Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you will abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." This verse came alive this week. Wow! This is the story of my life really. God wants me to change my perspective and see through His eyes. May I learn my lesson today and start spending time with Him asking Him to reveal His glory through His word.
So tomorrow is Saturday (Zachary's party), there is still lots to be done outside (mulching the flowerbeds, getting the backyard ready for play, and the list goes on), but it is all good and God is with us and everything will work out. Greg reminded me that the party was inside anyway. I am letting go and letting God. He will be our Helper and the yard will get done when He wants it to get done. I was thinking about having people bring they're work gloves to the party. Only kidding! If you are still reading this, thanks for listening. I hope you all have a blessed weekend!
